i realised that i am more of a negative person in terms of thinking lol..an eg. of what kind of things i think of when i am bored or fearful of things : if one day a person acting as a sales person come to my doorstep and take out a gun and shoot me in the stomach.. i will reach for my phone if possible and leave a msg to the ppl i love around me and tell my parents what to do with my belongings.. if i cant get my phone i will use my blood to write ' i love you mum , dad , bro (gf or wife if i have)'
thats roughly what i think of sometimes..i actually imagine senarios of how i might die and plan what to do lol
